I don’t have a clue….
I don’t have a clue where this painting is going! This one could very definitely tank - I’m preparing myself for that. Feeling my way along and probably working too cautiously is not helping matters. I guess the fact that I’m aware of that is a good thing. So there! I got the self doubt out of my system. One of the things I’ve had to learn is to not take myself too seriously. Painting is a learning process and I can’t learn without suffering though the uncertainty. As hard as I try to relax, the truth is that a painting has many many hours in it, even at this stage. It’s frustrating and painful when it doesn’t work out, not to mention difficult to gracefully give up all the time invested.
And of course, every single painting has this stage where I’m convinced I’m totally off track and this one can’t be saved. Painting is ridiculously exhausting — no one would believe the emotional investment required and the mind games that I play to keep myself engaged and encouraged.
It’s really sort of nuts. Oh well. It’s what I do.
